I still feel like crap. I woke up last night with my fever above 102 again and miserable (my Tylenol had worn out of course). I took more Tylenol and my third dose of antibiotics. Now, the fever is gone and I haven't had Tylenol for 8 hours. Might just be that middle of the day high - or the antibiotics may be working. We'll see.
The one good thing about being sick is that J helps a little more with baby at night, allowing me to get SLIGHTLY more sleep. (I've still got to feed her, that's why I say slightly). But he gets me things (ie: pumping tools, Tylenol, etc) and even changes her, making it possible for me to stay in bed... meaning I can fall back to sleep pretty easily. I suck at sleeping. Once UP in the middle of the night, then I'm up and can't go back to sleep! And it is so frustrating to put her back down after a 2am feeding only to lay there until 4:30am.
Vent to follow:
My mom has a boyfriend. This is not a new development; she has had the same one for the last several years. I have remained pretty indifferent to him, as I don't live in her house anymore, so whatever. He's gotten on my nerves of course, and done things to piss me off (mostly to her), and has some quirks that would drive me absolutely insane if I lived with him, but my mom seems to be happy with him, so like I said: I remain pretty indifferent to him. I want my mom to be happy even if I think she deserves better. (I acknowledge that I will probably never think anyone is good enough for her, because she is AMAZING.)
That being said, things are beginning to change. We go to my mom's once a week (on Saturday to visit and watch college football) unless one of us is sick or we're out of town, etc. This gives my mom an opportunity to see her first grandchild every week, which I think she enjoys. Her boyfriend is not a baby person, or a kid person for that matter, and I knew that and couldn't care less if he wants a relationship with my daughter. I just mean that I didn't expect him to want one and don't really want him to have one anyway.
He's one of those people that is probably just a little bit TOO smart, so his sense of humor is just a little bit too STUPID. He has said some "jokes" in relation to my daughter that were completely inappropriate and not funny at all. I've just been ignoring him - basically not even acknowledging that he's spoken - but I am really getting ticked off by this.
>_< SHE'S A BABY. Are you so lame that you feel the need to pick on a BABY?? She doesn't know what he's saying now, but since he seems to think it is appropriate to make these "jokes" now, I'm pretty sure he's not going to cut it out when she is old enough to understand him. So help me GOD, I will backhand him so hard his head spins if he says one word (joking or not) that is negative or hurts my child. >:( I will NOT take my daughter to my mom's house anymore if this is the way he is going to act.
Now, normally, because my mom and I are so close, I would just bring this up to her, tell her it's bothering me, and she would make him stop. But she's been dealing with a lot lately...even battling with depression again (she's been off meds for so long now, but may be heading that way again). I just don't want to bring up any conflict or put more on her plate, ya know? But I will draw the line somewhere...and soon.
I have tried to handle this with grace. Just ignoring his ignorance. But if it happens again this Saturday, I may just go off on him myself, instead of going through my mom. Jerk. >:(
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